lots to do

i need to finish this book i have mountains of homework i want to do more art yet i do nothing

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morning

I am going to be a morning person...tomorrow. I tell myself every morning. I will start afresh tomorrow. But every morning waking up with a punch to the stomach making the whole situation slightly more complicated. Slowly finding stones tied to my feet. I am sinking. Sinking without any view of the light. I am... Continue Reading →

too much

Is it just me? Is just me. Everything is too much, pen shaking trying to calm my erratic movements. I don't know how to stop the sickening twisting of my chest my stomach my lungs. Whizzing around me is an endless list of every reason I would much rather die than live another moment. Why I... Continue Reading →

love

I desperately want love. Someone. A person to talk to me like they want to know more of me, the inside of my spirit. Challenge me to see the world in a way they do. Caring enough to know when to listen or when to hold me. A beautiful person who can unknowingly regrow the wilting garden of my heart.... Continue Reading →

nevermind

I hate having to repeat my words due to the fact no one is listening. No one ever listens. No one ever listens. No one ever listens. No one ever listens. No one ever listens. No one ever listens."NEVERMIND." Everyone too busy. Too distracted. Too caught up with life. Too tired. I don't care. I... Continue Reading →

Useless

I'm sure I had a purpose once, well I think that's what that feeling of hope was. Now I lay here lifeless and useless, unaware of the blur of life, filled with an abundant prolific amount of pain. I'm sure I had a purpose once, well I think that's what that feeling of hope was.... Continue Reading →

Stuck

Stuck, I am drowning. I am still. I can’t breathe. I am screaming for help. All of this internal. No one hears me. Is this how everyone feels? Then the demons come back again. It must be how everyone feels. Or…I am not ‘normal’.  I am forced to hide the feelings. With a convincing mask.... Continue Reading →

Giving up

Darkness, overpowering, forced to bow down. Light is blinding. Emotion, unknown. Confusion consumes me. Yet nothing is apparent. Everything is fine. But inside unpleasant. Nothing is fine. Stomach drops. Nothing’s changed. Heart palpitations.Too much for my liking. Breathing too much. Yet starving for air. Staring into space. To find any answers. Now I see it... Continue Reading →

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